These are the zaps

I would like to start off by saying I fucking hate SSRI’s. If that’s what you need to feel better and it helps you all I can say is God Bless. All they did for me was make me suicidal and more depressed.

I’ve been off these SSRI’s for maybe a week and these withdrawal are god awful. I tapered off them pretty quickly. I got up to a very high dose very quickly in a two month period during this continued trial and error of medicine roulette. I tapered off to a lower dose for a week and stopped taking them all together.

The ideations came and gone with the help of some new meds and some anti anxiety meds but I’m still going through the withdrawal.

Right now I’m dealing with the brain zaps. It feels like somebody is legit zapping my whole body with a low powered taser every 5 to 10 minutes.

Concentration is out the window, impulse is at an all time high and agitation is just the icing on the cake. If you know me personally and see me acting like an ass, don’t take it personally. I really just feel like garbage right now during this waiting game.

Sorry in advance and hello darkness my old friend.

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